Thursday, January 27, 2011

Yesterday was a bit of a hard day, okay quite more than just a bit. Bo got back from the hospital yesterday and on the way home ended up in a car accident, everything turned out okay there. But a few hours later a lot changed, Bo and Emily's Dad collapsed and later died in the hospital. For those that do not know Bo and Emily are my step siblings who are 12 and 13. It was a very hard thing to see, and it really felt like nothing short of a miracle that I was there during this time when I was not supposed to be. I am glad that I have opportunities in life to be there for others and help them. Please send your thoughts and your prayers their way, its a very hard thing to go through even more so when going through a divorce at the same time.

And maybe I should give you all an update as well on the divorce between my Father and my step mom... my father is prolonging the court dates by getting continuances, as far as the divorce goes he claimed he was to preoccupied with.... you know I'll just stop now while I'm ahead and just tell you all of the court dates and lawsuits are a mess and not go into details.

Thankfully so far I feel like I have made the right choice in not getting an internship for this winter and instead coming home. I feel that my family at this point is more important and I am glad that I am home to be here for my family ... and yes all the many parts to my family.

And now that I am done traveling (hopefully), I am hoping that I can still find a job for the next couple months before I return to school in April. The job market is looking very nasty out here... and even more so being in the middle of nowhere. But here's to living life and loving it despite what thorns it has. 

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Bowen got out of surgery today just fine, I am grateful for that. He was quite grumpy when he woke up; he tore the IV out and tired to leave. Thankfully his mama was there for him.

I've also had the pleasant experience of seeing an old friend from BYU-I that graduated about a year ago, and its great to know that you can still keep in touch afterwords and you don't lose your friends just because of different locations. 

The Rathbun family picks up there new mastiff puppy named Monson on Friday and we are very excited. I am still hoping he will be my puppy, my mother contests otherwise.

Monday, January 24, 2011

I am currently back in Phoenix for my little brother's surgery tomorrow. We are hoping that all will go well. If all goes to plan he should be out of the hospital by Wednesday. On another note is very odd to see Glendale again, it has been about two years since I have been back here its a very strange feeling, I will never want to live here again in my life time about sums it up. I am still currently working out and in consequence of doing so I am gaining weight. It has taken me long enough haha... so far I have put on 8 pounds of muscle and I am hoping that I can keep it up. I am also hoping to run a half marathon hopefully in march. As for the more personal stuff of course I am just a phone call away.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Okay, so this may seem a bit ridiculous but it took me awhile to figure out what direction I wanted to take with this blog. I have chosen to make this a personal blog for close friends and family. I have noticed that recently I put zero to no information on facebook, and I do so for a reason.  Friends and family are having a bit of a hard time keeping up on everything when I don't put it online. This is me putting it online. This blog is going to be an easy update for my family and friends so no one has to wonder and it makes it a bit easier for me to keep up on everything. So friends and family this is for you. Hopefully I can keep on this blog so you guys at least know what city I am in at the time.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I am so glad that I have so many people that love me. I have a lot amazing people in my life. I also seem to have  a lot of places I am told that I am required to visit. So far my list includes Japan, Hong Kong, China, Korea, Vietnam, Philippines, Belgium, Vietnam, Canada, Colombia, Ireland, Chicago, New Hampshire.... well the list goes on but you get the picture. I have a lot of friends that are far away that are expecting me to visit them.... this is a long list; to be quite honest I don't know how I am going to keep up with this. I think that its also important to realize that distance doesn't keep friendship apart, its the space between two hearts.

Monday, January 17, 2011

I couldn't be happier. It seems as with my religion there is always so much pressure to get married to just jump right into it. But looking back I feel so blessed that I've gotten out of those situations. I am so grateful for where I am in life today and I can't express to you the joy I have for getting out of horrible situations and realizing reality. I am happy with who I am, and where I am in life. God has blessed me and made it so I am safe and not in any bad situations. So here's to all of you asking "why is she still single? she is amazing, smart, pretty...." the comments can go on and on.  Well besides being a mix of me being a player, refusing to date, dumping men like theirs no tomorrow, avoiding commitment, and a horrible relationship to boot, I've done what is best for me. I don't regret any of it, I am happy. I don't need another person to be happy, someday that person may come but I don't need someone else to complete me, to make me happy, to save from a castle guarded by a dragon; I've got that covered by myself. And I want whats right rather than whatever throws them self at me, if I did that I would be married and divorced many times over already. It looks like I've gotten to the point where this is just simply babbling ... just remember that life is great. Come what may and love it.
The truth is we all do crazy things for the ones we love. A great example of this friendship. When my friends need my I am always there, usually more than the average person would be. My best friend was having a bit of a hard time so I got on a plane. So here I am in San Fransisco. The things I do for my friends quite honestly are the same things they would do for me in a heart beat if I needed them. Luckily for them I don't quite let anyone take care of me easily, so they are usually off the hook in that area. There seem to be very few people in this world that I am okay with taking care of me, I like to take care of myself for the most part. But I will take care of my friends and the people around me when they need me; whether that be hoping on a plane to San Fransisco or something simpler.

It was great to spend time with my best friend Tyler and another good  friend Christian, as well as meeting a few new friends as well. It was a great experience and a big part of me wishes that I could still be there now.  I hope to do an internship in San Jose in the spring during my break hopefully that works out. I have to say though that some of the people I had dinner with were well very high up in what they do ... I find it funny how I don't let nerves get to me till after I already get through it. I always realize that I should be very intimidated in some situations but in reality I tend not to be. Always me taking on the world, I seem to be good at that.
Now as far as what I did while visiting for the most part I think I will keep that to myself .... just know that I never cease to be trouble sometimes.  To be quite honest I hope to live in this area someday after I graduate from BYU-I and maybe do grad school here as well.